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is it me, or is the time moving slower? i feel like i have a lot more time because of the nights coming quicker. this is a good thing. life moves quick at every chance it gets, so when life feels like it’s moving slow, i’ll relish in that every chance i get.
-ratha, 2:36pm, 11.6.17
after eating at kfc, i went to toysrus with my girl. i had a blast looking at all the toys they had to offer, all the new ones and all the old ones. there were things there i couldn’t believe still existed. they had new dbz toys, new tmnt toys, and new barbie toys. these franchises have been around for more than a long time, which is something i have grown to appreciate. for example, my brother grew up on tmnt, then i did, too. fast forward 20 some years and so is ms. sam’s son.
crazy right?
it’s sad that a company like toysrus filed for bankruptcy. that’s my whole childhood, that and kb toys.
-ratha, 8:23pm, 10.31.17
“life is first come, first serve.”
i woke up this morning to a call from a friend who said she was in town for a bar crawl last night. her, my roommate, and i go out to eat at golden taipei. we walk in and there’s a buffet set up, but we request menus. i order general tsos chicken and they order some variant of western chinese chicken as well. we get our food and begin talking. we all met at unc charlotte, but she is from where i’m from, the triangle. she moved back there after graduation and she mentioned how she got hired at a store in beaver creek. beaver creek is a shopping center, where i used to go frequently as a teenager way back when. for some odd reason, hearing that made me happy. of course i was happy for her to get another job, but i was simply happy hearing beaver creek.
when i was home last weekend for my birthday, i got to talking to my brother meezy, and he mentions this program that would be good for me back home. it really has me thinking whether i should move back or not. it’s tempting. i love apex like no other, but lately it feels as if things in charlotte have started shaping up the way i’ve been wanting them to. i don’t know whether i’ve been dying to experience something similar to what i’ve had before, or something new, but it’s something about apex, and definitely something about the way things are falling into place now.
-ratha, 12:23pm, 4.30.17
because i couldn’t drive, i decided to order food from a chinese joint down the road. i think the name of the restaurant was cottage express. i ordered chicken fried rice, also known as chiken fry rii, and chicken and broccoli. the delivery guy arrived and handed me my food. i tipped him online, but decided to give him some cash as well. as he’s walking back to his car, he asks if i’m cambodian. i asked him what he was and he said laotian. i don’t know how asians do it, but i can’t recognize asians by the country, only by the region. maybe it’s an acquired thing, being more of nurture as opposed to nature, but either way, game recognize game.
-ratha, 6:41pm, 4.29.17
i was eating a bojangles before work on sharon amity. i’ve never been to this specific location, but the inside is fairly cramped. there were two older white men eating alone. one was writing what seemed like something of importance on his napkin, and the other was reading a book. i’m not curious enough to experience it first-hand, but i wonder how they feel when they see someone of my age. is it similar to when i see a middle-schooler? time and age have a strange, yet fascinating relationship. i feel old, but i know i’m young which makes me wonder if they feel as old as they are, are they caught up mentally as they are physically?
i guess i’ll find out one day?
-ratha, 6:15pm, 4.20.17
i’m scrolling down my instagram timeline and there’s a video of a cat ‘sneaking’ onto the field at an mlb game. shit got me thinking. how strange would it be to be wandering off into the woods one day and come across a stadium filled with cats looking at me.
damn, i’m empathizing with the cat heavily rn.
-ratha, 10:31pm, 4.11.17
i got out the shower earlier tonight and saw bleacher report post about john cena getting engaged at wrestlemania. i looked up the match card and saw goldberg, brock lesnar, undertaker, and triple h. i was surprised to see them still wrestling, but nonetheless i put it on. i haven’t watched since 5th grade, with the exception of a few wrestlemanias here and there.
i caught triple h entering the ring and i couldn’t believe it. i used to watch him when i was 6 or 7, and now a few weeks from 24 i was watching him wrestle an unfamiliar name. the theatrics and stage set were so grandiose. the ramp itself was a screen display! then they had a ring above the ring! it was nuts. triple h was escorted by police with stephanie mcmahon to the ring. he even did his famous water spitting. i used to waste bottles of water as an 8 year-old spitting out water pretending i was him. it was like i was a kid again. later in the night, the undertaker appeared to retire after a loss to some guy i’ve never heard about. it’s wild how time passes, i used to love watching these guys. a good portion of my childhood, i grew up glued to the television screen on mondays and thursdays. i used to want to be the rock so bad. although i’m no longer emotionally invested into wrestling anymore, it was sad to see the undertaker place his gloves, coat, and hat in the middle of the ring last night and walk off. i couldn’t imagine how that felt.
all good things must come to an end, i guess.
-ratha, 12:37am, 4.3.17
“intimacy is difficult to come across.”
i haven’t been out shooting in months, but i made my way to the city today to shoot my monthly self-portraits. i really have to make time (aka stop being lazy) to shoot more.
a few interesting observations:
-older black gentleman in suit was wearing pirate black yeezy’s
-free parking is everywhere if you’re bold enough to chance it
-dogs walked downtown tend to walk with their tails down
-i feel guilty and sad when i see homeless people
-cities grow in the same manner humans do; quickly
i don’t know, maybe more on the last one later.
-ratha, 11:47pm, 3.22.17