dreams

dreaming insecurely, 6.9.17

living right by the pnc, like right by-right by, has its perks. for one, i can hear concerts from my room without having to be there. i even heard president obama speak once. i couldn’t believe i was hearing his voice when he came to rally for hillary. obama bruh. from my room with the windows open bruh. two, if i ever wanted to attend a concert, i wouldn’t have to pay for parking because i could walk 700 feet and be at the box office. and three, i get so inspired whenever i see concert traffic.

tonight, i was on the way to cookout as the iron maiden concert let out. it was bad timing, yet it made for good conversation with my shorty. it also made for good inspiration for my future. seeing people come out the venue smiling, enjoying themselves, looking excited and full of life gave me a good feeling. music, much like most of art, is meant to bridge the gap between everything that causes disconnect. the misunderstood becomes understood. the unaccepted becomes accepted. the lonely become lonely together. it’s beautiful.

being this world-wide renowned rapper that changes the world is something i can’t get out of my head. all i could think about was what if. what if those people were there to see me? what if expressing myself could change the world? what if others are feeling what i’m feeling? what if i could understand the misunderstood? what if i could make the unaccepted feel accepted? what if all of these moments of loneliness lead me to other people that have felt lonely and it brought us all together?

that’d be beautiful. 


-ratha, 11:58pm, 6.9.17

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nice novels, 4.24.17

on my lunch shift at work today, i get to conversing with my manager and i reveal to him i aim to be a writer. to be nice, he tells me if he ever sees a book with my name on it, he will buy it and read it. 


a book. with my name on it. that i wrote. being purchased and read. 

what a thought. 


-ratha, 3:31pm, 4.24.17

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bojangles before work, 4.20.17

i was eating a bojangles before work on sharon amity. i’ve never been to this specific location, but the inside is fairly cramped. there were two older white men eating alone. one was writing what seemed like something of importance on his napkin, and the other was reading a book. i’m not curious enough to experience it first-hand, but i wonder how they feel when they see someone of my age. is it similar to when i see a middle-schooler? time and age have a strange, yet fascinating relationship. i feel old, but i know i’m young which makes me wonder if they feel as old as they are, are they caught up mentally as they are physically? 


i guess i’ll find out one day?


-ratha, 6:15pm, 4.20.17

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5th grade dreams, 4.8.17

last night, i was going through instrumentals and listening to different types of music. it left me very inspired. i got up this morning and began writing a few songs. i finished one of them about an hour ago and decided to name it everytime. it makes me feel so good, i love being inspired. i hope this takes me to places i’ve been longing to visit, and places i never knew i wanted to see.


-ratha, 12:15am, 4.8.17

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