book worm
“they always like you in retrospect.”
last night, i was going through instrumentals and listening to different types of music. it left me very inspired. i got up this morning and began writing a few songs. i finished one of them about an hour ago and decided to name it everytime. it makes me feel so good, i love being inspired. i hope this takes me to places i’ve been longing to visit, and places i never knew i wanted to see.
-ratha, 12:15am, 4.8.17
“life happens to all of us.”
i love the people i’m surrounded by. they’re intelligent, emotionally depth, rational, and open-minded. i’ve found from observation the majority of people are influenced by their friends, but i so happen to be lucky enough to be inspired by mine. whoever is in charge of all this, know i’m trying to count my blessings as much as i can.
-ratha, 1:13am, 4.6.17
i can feel things falling into place the way i’ve been wanting them to these past few months. it’s slow, but it’s a start. i sat blissfully in traffic today because i had somewhere to be. as you can probably tell, it’s been a while since i’ve had any “real-world” responsibilities. for the past two years i’ve been living in my own world, on my own time, on my own. fortunate to be able to do so, but appreciation only gets you so far. i’ve been a stranger to new beginnings, but i’m becoming accustomed to what i’m experiencing, getting familiar with my life at the moment, in the moment.
-ratha, 1:17am, 3.31.17
i hated hearing my mom say she was stressed on the phone today. i care about her and my dad beyond definition of any word of any language. they want me back in school, but i can’t go back just yet, as selfish and unappreciative as it sounds. there’s more writing i have to share with you, there’s music i’m working on that may be of value to the world. i’m confident there’s a middle ground where they can be proud of me and i can be happy with myself. to get there takes patience, and though patience is running thin at the moment, i’m running as fast as i can, moving quicker with every stride. as i’m getting quicker and quicker, i’m getting closer and closer. i can feel it. although some things you can’t explain, know that i feel it. also note that i’ve never been one to ignore my intuition.
i’m convinced.
-ratha, 10:43pm, 3.27.17
“intimacy is difficult to come across.”
“it’s not always wise to believe the lies insecurities tell.”
“being on the internet for fun gets boring after a while.”