perks of drinking by the drinking machine, 4.19.17

tonight at work, i was sipping my concoction of sprite and fruit punch while i over heard a tidbit from a conversation going on between two of my coworkers a few feet away. they were talking about molly and sex and how one of them does molly at raves. i haven’t done molly, but i’ve had sex, although i haven’t ever had sex with a girl named molly, so i finished my drink and walked away thinking of how good it feels to be a wallflower some times. i grow from other’s experiences in hopes they can learn from mine. quiet and observant, but never judgmental. after all, we’re all in search for infinity. 

-ratha, 1:38am, 4.19.17

learning for the first time, 3.2.17

today i paid my orthodontist a visit to get my retainer fixed. i wear retainers 24/7 with the exception of when i’m eating because i have this fear of my teeth shifting back to what they were in 2004. you have bad teeth, and then you have horrible teeth like mine. i had a tooth behind a tooth and they weren’t aligned at the same height. teeth going all different types of directions lol.

as Dr. Meyer is looking at my folder, he tells me this may will be 10 years out of braces for me. wow. a decade. a whole decade. i remember getting them off before my 8th grade graduation, hard to believe it’s been 10 years since then. we get to talking and he mentions he’s going to punta cana next week. while he’s taking impressions of my teeth, Dr. Meyer says he’ll work for a few more years before he retires. it then occurred to me how everyone living is living this day/stage of their lives for the first time. my first march 2nd 2017 was everyone else’s first as well, which further confirms my belief that no one really knows what they’re doing. you live and learn. in that order. thank god i’m still living, because i’m still learning.

-ratha, 11:25pm, 3.2.17