no explanation needed, 3.24.17

there’s no time to waste, no time for hesitation. some people pass up time with you then want an explanation as to why they don’t see you anymore. i can’t keep up with anybody but myself, and even then, i’ve been having trouble lately. at this point, i’m more afraid of what i could be missing out on than what i’ve already missed out on previously. there’s a lot more at stake for a dreamer who believes in the possibilities living in mediocrity. time spent hesitating is time wasted, i’ve learned that the hard way.

-ratha, 3:28pm, 3.24.17

astro van reminders, 3.23.17

some guy pulled out in front of me and i thought about how therapeutic honking the horn would be, which triggered me to remember of how when we lived in durham my mom would let me honk the horn of our astro van whenever we got back to our apartment complex. i got so much joy out of it, and she got so much joy out of seeing me happy. i was like 2 or 3 at the time. man, i miss those times. i think my mom does, too. 

-ratha, 3:05pm, 3.23.17

still riding to freedom, 3.23.17

today as i’m walking bagel at reedy creek, around the same volleyball courts, i see the same paraplegic riding around that i wrote about almost two months ago. still whipping it. still living. still happy.

good for him.

-ratha, 2:54pm, 3.23.17

a friend of a friend, 3.21.17

a friend of a friend i’ve never met. i’ve never seen someone get down how you get down, and trust me, i’m down with that. have me thinking i should enroll in school north of the border or something. maybe it’s not too cold after all. it’s all so confusing, but perhaps in the future we could work something out and you could introduce me to our mutual friend. that would be something.

-ratha, 11:11pm, 3.21.17

pavilion a year ago, 3.21.17

i wrote about you a year ago when it all went down. i’ll never forget it. i was at south park in belk buying a calvin klein underwear set for a girl who works at starbucks that i was into when aaron sent me an article explaining the crash that resulted in the upside down car we observed while driving to chipotle a day earlier. 20 years old. too young and gone too quickly.

today as i was driving, i saw an older lady and an older gentleman at your memorial on my way to copy my house key. i texted aaron to tell him about it and he said it was coming around a year since then, as his dad’s birthday is on saturday. he says he looks at your memorial almost everyday when he drives by.

that makes two of us.

-ratha, 7:38pm, 3.21.17

moore hall to japan, 3.19.17

this guy named chris lived in the room adjacent to mine in Moore Hall back during my freshman year at uncc. everytime he’d see me on campus he’d always show me love. chris is just a super cool, down to earth person. he graduated and he lives in japan now. i love keeping up with his travels on instagram. he’s doing so well and i’m proud of him, man. every time his pictures pop up on my ig page i can’t help but to think of how wonderful life is and how the journey for each and every one of us is different. 

life.

-ratha, 3:41pm, 3.19.17

amazin’ skatin’, 3.18.17

skateboarding fascinates me. it’s like how are you so precise in manipulating the board to make it flip and turn the exact same way every time? geometry in motion lol. physics, man.

-ratha, 3:57am, 3.18.17

that 90's allure, 3.17.17

i watched your snap story of you and your cat twice because i thought it was a vibe. i don’t know what it is about you. you remind me of the late 90’s/early 00’s and i couldn’t tell you why. it’s like you grew up in my sister’s generation but you’re a year younger than me. either way, it’d be nice to to experience a flashback in present time.

-ratha, 10:49pm, 3.17.17

optometry packing, 3.16.17

i ask you what you’re doing up so late and you tell me you have a flight to philly in 5 hours. you’re being interviewed for optometry school. hard to believe we’ve known each other since the fall semester of 2014, where we met in chem 1252. it feels good to know that at least one of us is benefiting from chemistry. i hope you get in, i know you’ll get in. i’ve always loved how you prioritized academics first. in a generation full of distractions and social media temptation, that’s impressive beyond belief shawty. back in the summer at the gym you told me you applied to all out of state schools, but you know wherever you land, i’ll visit. philly included. 

-ratha, 1:30am, 3.16.17

nothing about today, 3.14.17

i kind of want to stay in my room all day today. i don’t have much desire to do anything, maybe because there’s nothing to do and noone to do it with. they said there’d be days like this.

-ratha, 11:43am, 3.14.17