the super powers, 1.12.24

clark came to my desk today because he found a phone in the bathroom and was wondering what to do. my best bet was to contact hr to send a mass email to the second floor and somebody would eventually come get the phone. he commented on my desk and said he loves how the pens are set up. the pens are just organized so it doesn’t speak much about me, but more about clark because he is such a kind human. i told him i’m kind of ocd about these things and he said that’s alright because it’s actually a super power. he said if da vinci and van gogh were alive today, they’d call them crazy things, but they’re actually genuises. that made me feel good. clark walked back to his desk to email one of the hr directors we have onsite, but the whole quirks being super powers stuck with me.

he’s too kind, which the world could use more of.

-ratha, 4:12pm, 1.12.24

self-care products, 1.11.24

i love getting new self-care products whether it be body wash, skincare, or anything else. i went to target tonight to get new mouth wash and a tooth brush. i’m excited for the mouth wash because i’ve heard it’s a good one. i’m always looking to add to my self-care. i also picked up some smell good beads for my closet because sometimes when we be cooking, the aroma sticks to my clothes as my room is above the kitchen lmaoooo. i went to the target in woburn and they were playing music, which was strange because i don’t recall target ever playing music. it was the typical pop/rock, but they did play boo’d up by ella mai which had me vibing in between the self-care aisles.

i’ll be back to report on the mouth wash in a week or twoooooo.

-ratha, 8:11pm, 1.11.24

fixing pro tools, 1.10.24

money texted me this morning about my youtube video last night. he said to stay consistent and keep the momentum going this year. getting messages like those keep me motivated on days where i feel like resting or taking the easy way out. so after work today, i went to guitar center in danvers and met up with a guy named julian. he’s had experience with pro tools, so i was hoping he could help me address the issue. he took me to the back where i pulled my set up out and he tried to troubleshoot for 30 minutes. we couldn’t get the issue resolved, but julian was able to rule out any hardware issues. he was so nice and he definitely was of great help. i hope nothing but the best for him as he said he was buying a broken guitar to fix. so if my pro tools can’t be resolved, i hope his guitar turns out to be everything and more. oh and before i forget, yesterday i had my first tiktok comment from a stranger and then today i had my first post get over 1000 views! these might not seem like that much, but to me it’s more than i’ve ever had so it’s a lot.

i hope the numbers keep growing as the writing stays consistent like money said.

-ratha, 11:44pm, 1.10.24

comfortable wa12, 1.9.24

i feel like i wrote about this recently, but i’m going to mention it again because it’s on my mind. when i’m in the basement writing, i usually play songs. i’ve been finding myself listening to comfortable by myself and a$. we recorded that in 2015 for our mixtape, written after twelve, and it’s still so good years later. it wasn’t our original song, just our take on one of our favorites by k camp. i can’t stop listening to it, literally. i told money, but i had to write it on the blog.

i’m thinking now that i’m releasing music, i might go ahead and dig in the vault to share written after twelve with the world again.

-ratha, 10:32pm, 1.9.24

a pretty commute, 1.8.24

fresh snow is beautiful for up to two days after. the commute to work this morning was gorgeous. i love driving after it snows. everything looks like a hallmark holiday movie set. when i came home, i had a video consultation for vocal lessons. my teacher said my voice was warm and unique. it made me feel good because when i’ve talked to people about my insecurities about the music i make, they tend to compliment my voice. it’s giving me the confidence to go out on a limb and express myself to the world through notes and instruments. my first lesson is this saturday and i can’t wait. i am so excited because i think this time i will be sticking with this whole music thing.

let’s see where it goes.

-ratha, 9:32pm, 1.8.24

9 month hiatus, 1.7.24

today is the last day of the nfl regular season. the chargers were not playoff bound whatsoever, so it’ll be 9 months until i get to watch them compete for a superbowl. 9 months! a kid can be conceived and born in that amount of time. that’s a long ass time without chargers and colts football, but i’ll have the playoffs for the next month as a consolation until the time comes again.

-ratha, 9:15pm, 1.7.24

slipping hills, 1.6.24

it started snowing heavy earlier than expected. i went to the gym, then to burlington mall to return mom’s north face jacket. as i was driving back home, literally one road from the neighborhood, i tried braking and slipped all the way past central. i was on the phone with schuni at the time and it was so unexpected. there wasn’t much snow on the road at the time, so i couldn’t imagine why the sequoia slipped, but luckily i was able to stop at the bottom and not hit anything or anyone. i had a hard time getting back up the hill, but with patience, i made it back home. we were supposed to go out tonight, but i had to call it off.

i think i’ll write and spend some quality time with bagel as the snow falls on this cold january night in the year 2024.

-ratha, 7:14pm, 1.6.24

already quitting?!, 1.5.24

i went to the gym tonight at peak hours. i got there at like 6:30pm. there was nobody in that mf man. i was telling chan it was nice because i was able to get in and get out, but at the same time, where tf y'all at?? i thought everybody was on their new year’s resolutions lol. not even a week in and it’s a ghost town?

regardless of what other people are doing, i got mines in and that’s all that matters in this world we live in yessir.

-ratha, 8:33pm, 1.5.24

on repeat on the way home, 1.4.24

when priyank walked in the lab, we were talking and he told me he listened to december 2023 all the way home last night after playing tennis. or was it badminton? i can’t remember, but it was either one. he said he thought it was good and he was excited for it to release. maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan that shit meant a lot to me. i told him we gotta get rich because he has his own badminton business that he’s running. we both great so it’s time to let the world know. then he said we need that waterfront property referencing a line in december 2023. that’s my brother frfr. i know i talk about my job in a negative light and how i don’t like people there, but there are a few that i absolutely love and priyank is one of them. it’s just real, authentic energy and that’s more of what you need in this life.

i’m lucky to have the people i do in my life.

december 2023 coming soon.

-ratha, 10:44am, 1.4.24

shooting album artwork, 1.3.24

after work today, i went home and wrote for an hour. then i walked bagel. though it was cold, i needed to shoot my album artwork cover for december 2023, but the planned location (with the concept in my mind) was logistically impossible for me to do it by myself so i called schuni. he was shooting for his youtube and told me he’d hit me up afterwards and we could make moves. we pulled up to washington street 3 hours later and was able to get the perfect shot for the album cover. i’m so excited to release this song. as i was standing in front of paramount theatre, it hit me, this is the start of it all. this is the beginning. i been wanted to release music since i was a teenager and i’ve been wanted to be a musician since i was in 5th grade. i finally fought off (some not all of) my demons, my insecurities, and my self-doubt to feel comfortable releasing a song. not even comfortable, excited. that’s progress if i’ve ever experienced it.

it’s all up from here.

it feels good to say december 2023 coming soon and mean it.

-ratha, 11:02pm, 1.3.24