indian with uncle dave, 12.12.24

after moving, uncle dave and his wife took me to an indian spot in andover. it was very good, and the interior was extremely cozy. we talked about writing, working in biotech, and films we like. they told me they saw a fictional movie recently they enjoyed about a woman who had aspirations to be famous. she bought a billboard and just put her name on it. people were wondering who she was and eventually it led her to some fruitful opportunities. i forgot what the name of the movie was, but it gave me an idea. what if i bought a billboard in boston and put my writing on there? or even a billboard in another city? that might be the way to get more traction and publicity with the writing, and even the music. hmmmm.

every conversation i have these days seem to be divine and i can’t thank God enough.

-ratha, 3:13pm, 12.12.24

the notebook, 12.11.24

i should be asleep because i gotta wake up tomorrow to help uncle dave move a few things, but i’m watching the notebook and it’s one of the best movies i’ve ever seen. i can’t shut it off. i saw it for the first time when i was a teenager, but it didn’t hit how it’s hitting now. how in the world did rachel mcadams do the notebook and mean girls in the same year? that’s a hell of a feat. i definitely understand women now when they refer to the notebook as an ideal romance.

a love like noah and allie’s would actually be incredible, except i’d prefer it without the separation.

-ratha, 11:58pm, 12.11.24

gift-giving, 12.10.24

i went to the mall tonight with a plan and came away with gifts for my mom and dad. i still have a few things to get my dad, but for the most part, my holiday shopping is done. i was thinking of going to sweet greens for dinner, which is right outside the mall, but i went to a chinese joint in the food court. the chinese was not good at all. i was tempted by the smells and the thought, but i was better off going to sweet green. chaz facetimed me when i was eating and i was telling him i didn’t even want to finish it but i had to because it was $17 smh. i ended up going to hmart afterwards to get some bulgogi marinade but ended up getting snacks and sodas as well.

now that the shopping is pretty much done, i have to find a way to get the gifts into the house without my parents noticing.

-ratha, 8:44pm, 12.10.24

between the maria’s and westside gunn, 12.9.24

i was writing a song when e called. we get to talking about anything and everything whenever we’re on the phone and tonight he’s telling me about a girl he matched with. she’s listing her favorite musicians, and he tells me he’s about to list his and include me in the middle of it. he sends me a screenshot and i started crying it was so funny. my name sticks out like a sore thumb, it’s in the middle of the maria’s and westside gunn lmaooooooooooooo.

it’s been an hour but everytime i think of it, i start laughing.

-ratha, 11:34pm, 12.9.24

late snows, 12.8.24

when i opened the back door to let bagel out for the last time tonight, we were greeted by snow. it wasn’t much, but it was still coming down. i don’t think it’ll stick because it’s a bit warm, but i’m always so taken back when i see snow that i have to take a picture lol. i think it’s because i’m from the south and though i’ve been in new england for almost 4 years (wow), snow still gets me excited.

well, the thought and sight of snow because dealing with it is a whole different story.

-ratha, 1:32am, 12.8.24

wasting away, 12.7.24

i didn’t do anything today except go to the gym. i took a nap before and a nap after. i feel like i’m wasting away this precious saturday. i’m about to shower and read some national geographic until i fall asleep. i started an article they featured on ai and the future of its’ potential. it’s an eye-opening article and i’m looking forward to finishing it with a warm cup of hot chocolate.

-ratha, 11:26pm, 12.7.24

last day, 12.6.24

today was my last day working for the year. i did the same thing i do most years which is save all my vacation days for the end of the year. i don’t do it purposely, but i somehow end up in this predicament year after year. next year i’m hoping will be my last year working a 9-5 as i’m hoping the music or the writing gains some traction, but i’ll try my best not to save all my vacation days for the end of the year in 2025.

-ratha, 11:55pm, 12.6.24

date coincidences, 12.5.24

there are these covid tests that are on a small counter right by the laundry room as soon as you walk in the house. for whatever reason i picked them up today thinking they had to be expired so i could toss them. when i looked, the date was december 5th 2024, which so happens to be today. i was like wtf. i should’ve tossed them but i was so caught off guard i put them back on the counter and walked away. like what’s the chances?

i should probably go buy a lottery ticket huh.

-ratha, 4:23pm, 12.5.24

drizzy and i at the top, 12.4.24

spotify wrapped came out today and to noone’s surprise, drake was my top artist. i was my 2nd top artist and my top song was december 2023. it sounds cliche, but i can literally ride around listening to my music for hours. i get so caught up in my songs i forget i wrote them sometimes. according to spotify i spent 24,800 minutes listening to drake during the year 2024. 24? 8? kobe? lmaoo but nah drake number 1, i’m number 2? numbers are more than coincidental to me, but i’m excited for next year. we’re about to drop a new song soon, i’m hoping by the end of the month.

we’ll see where we’re at december of 2025.

-ratha, 4:12pm, 12.4.24

christmas shopping, 12.3.24

after the doctor’s, i went to burlington mall to get some christmas shopping done. i still don’t know what to get my parents. i feel like i keep going out shopping only to come home empty-handed. it’s like when you open your fridge for something to eat, go away for 5 minutes, and open the fridge again. i need to actually think of their gifts and come back with a plan instead of wandering aimlessly. i did, however, get some tikka masala from the indian joint in the food court. it was good as always and the lassi was incredible.

let’s hope next weekend i’ll come home with a trunk full of gifts.

-ratha, 4:42pm, 12.3.24