dinner time clock, 3.31.24

bagel just woke out of his sleep and immediately started whining and barking. it’s amazing because he has no idea what time it is, yet he knows it’s dinner time. he always gets antsy from 5:30-6:30pm. when it’s daylight savings, it’s 4:30pm-5:30pm. i’m amazed at how he knows what time it is pretty precisely though he can’t tell time. after he eats, we’ll catch the 2nd half of the duke vs state game then go on a walk.

also, the first master of atlanta, tampa came back yesterday. i sent in a few changes, so we’ll see where it stands in the next few days. we’re looking to finalize the master and submit for distribution within the upcoming week.

-ratha, 6:40pm, 3.31.24

doing things for myself, 3.30.24

i was told on thursday to do one thing for myself everyday this weekend. yesterday, i thought the universe did something nice for me with how stunning the sky looked at sunset. today, i’m not sure what to do. i went to the gym, then i went to the park. those are two things that are self-care, but they are routine so i convinced myself they didn’t count. i looked at things i can buy, but there’s not really anything i want right now. i could buy a car, but the right one has yet to pop up on my saved searches. i watched some of the elite 8, but again, that’s something i’d normally do. i’m really stuck because i don’t know what to do for myself. the only thing i can think of is another vacation, so i’ll take a look at some places after my shower.
doing things for yourself isn’t as easy as it sounds, but i guess that’s why self-care is hard work and that’s why most people avoid it (i guess).

-ratha, 8:14pm, 3.30.24

march spring sunsets, 3.29.24

happy friday, i hope you enjoyed the sunset tonight because it was beautiful.

-ratha, 7:11pm, 3.29.24

the rain before the calm, 3.28.24

it’s been raining crazy these past couple days in boston. my commute this morning was damn near two hours because of it. other than that, i’ve been loving it. going to sleep and waking to rain is one of my favorite simple pleasures of life. especially on days where you don’t have to work.

unfortunately for me, i’m at work right now thinking of calmer mornings.

-ratha, 10:21am, 3.28.24

typical wednesday, 3.27.24

i’m running off two hours of sleep and a 9-hour workday. we still went to the gym so that’s a win in itself. two things happened today that were out of the ordinary. 1) i ordered door dash for the first time. i was craving cfa breakfast so i ordered a chicken biscuit meal with an extra chicken biscuit. because it was my first time, the delivery fee was waived. still a $17 order ended up being $25. that’s like a 50% mark up to an already expensive price. i don’t know how people do it. maybe i’m just too cheap lol. 2) i was at the park with bagel and he broke my hands-free walker lunging at a dog. the last time he did this was at reedy creek some years ago at charlotte. i had a difficult time finding the same hands-free walker back then, so i’m assuming it’ll be impossible now. all that’s left is to write, read, shower, and go to sleep.

let’s hope for more than 2 hours tonight.

-ratha, 9:02pm, 3.27.24

not so bad after all, 3.26.24

my dad and i haven’t had time to catch up. either he’s out of town or i’m busy or vis versa. for whatever reason, we haven’t been in the same place at the same time for a while, though we live together. tonight, he asked me how life has been as i’m doing a load of laundry. i sat down with him and showed him some photos and videos from life lately. as we’re going through my camera roll, it occurred to me that i’ve been living a pretty good life as of recent, despite what my emotions may tell me some days. from the food i’ve eaten to the places i’ve traveled to the things i’ve done. i felt grateful because not everybody gets to experience some of the things i’ve experienced with the people i’ve experienced them with.

i’m truly one of the luckiest people on earth.

-ratha, 11:23pm, 3.26.24

at south pointe park, 3.25.24

i used to think it was so corny when people said they liked walks on the beach. it almost became a joke of some sort, but in reality, i love them. bagel taught me to love walks and the past couple times i’ve been to the beach, i’ve loved walking the shore line. we went to south pointe park to catch the sunset today. though it was cloudy, we still walked the beach and got in the water. we set up our tent and walked for 50 minutes. the best conversations are in a parked car, on the phone running errands, and during walks. this i’m convinced of. life should be like this more often. i don’t wanna leave, but i know having the freedom to travel without restriction will be more than pto one day.

motivation is flowing undoubtebly right now.

-ratha, 9:23pm, 3.25.24

on the water, in the city, 3.24.24

before i got in the water, i was nervous. when i got in, i was scared. i couldn’t even do 7/8 mph without feeling terrified, but after a while i was hitting 45+ mph. after a while there wasn’t much thought, just more action. it felt so liberating. i guess what i’m trying to say is on the other side of fear is freedom and that i’m hoping that’s a metaphor that materializes in life sooner rather than later.

-ratha, 4:22pm, 3.24.24

iaab pt. 2, 3.23.24

back in july, chan called me one fateful morning in nyc and told me to go to drake’s concert. i was so happy i did. tonight, he calls me again. he asks where i’m at and i tell him i’m in line to get into the drizzy show. he laughed and said drake’s still on tour? i told him yes and that he brought weezy. big bro told me to have fun as i vowed to hit him up afterwards. this concert was better than the nyc one, though the nyc one was fire. to top it off, wayne performed. i couldn’t believe my eyes when i saw him. that man changed my life. wayne is my favorite rapper and drake is my favorite artist, and tonight i got to see both on stage. wayne even performed money on my mind which is one of my favorite songs off tha carter ii which ironically chan bought for me as a christmas gift in 7th grade. i was tearing up seeing wayne walk to the stage. that’s weezy!!! i don’t know what to say because i’m still in awe.

there’s a message in here somewhere, i just don’t know what it is because i’m too busy enjoying these moments.

-ratha, 11:53pm, 3.23.24

terminal 2, 3.22.24

the first target run after touching down is so exciting. i know it’s just target, but all these people in here live here while you’re visiting. i somehow forgot deodorant, so i had to get that along with my vacation aloe drink. i’m looking forward to the next few days, but we gotta keep working. atlanta, tampa promo video is looking amazing and i still have to wrap up a few more songs. i’m hoping being in a new environment will bring forth inspiration, that way i get to relax and be inspired at the same time. two birds, one stone.

you know?

-ratha, 7:22pm, 3.22.24