i went to chimney rock today and hiked two trails. well, the 2nd wasn’t a trail, just a bunch of stairs. when we got to the top of the second trail, i almost passed out. i began feeling light-headed and disoriented. man, that shit was scary. all of a sudden my vision became light and things were moving in waves.
something didn’t feel right.
my girl sat me down and went to go buy a cold water. she took my book bag off and gave me a snack to eat as she was fanning my shirt from the back to cool me off. i eventually felt better (thanks to her) and we finished our day trip.
on the way home, she fell asleep and i was up driving alone. i was exhausted from the mountains, but my mind decided to embark on a trip of its own. it’s hard enough taking care of yourself, but to have someone who takes care of themselves help you take care of yourself when you need it is a blessing. i don’t know how i feel about god, religion, spirits, or even the universe, but i can discern with 100% confidence what and what is not a blessing, so believe me when i tell you she’s a blessing in my life. and to think a few months ago i thought it was getting harder and harder to find the things i was looking for. i hope that doesn’t sound selfish, but i just want to write about my appreciation.
speaking of blessings, happy birthday darius.
-ratha, 9:54pm, 6.27.17