the parka miles, 3.11.24

i fell asleep earlier today for 3 hours after work. it set me back quite a bit. i ended up running my mile in 30-degree weather in the wind with a full-on parka at 11pm. i was still able to hit 9:53, which is not good, but it’s an improvement from where i was last week so i’ll take it.

the road to under 7 will be a treacherous one, but a rewarding one at that.

-ratha, 11:45pm, 3.11.24

notes in money’s phone, 3.10.24

money just called me asking me if i remember an idea of a series of movies we had in 2016. i vaguely remembered, to be honest. he mentioned on another note in his phone from 2016, that he wrote he was married and had a daughter. that’s exactly his situation now. money told me he wrote that i would have a son, but not be married. i’m like dog you better not have manifested that for me lmaoooo. then we started reminiscing on his 24th birthday. when we got off the phone, i started thinking about how when we lived together all we did was get active. whether it was creating, going out to new places, etc. i’ve been getting back to that lately, which feels good, but if i could go back to 2016 for one weekend, that would do wonders for my soul.

-ratha, 1:16am, 3.10.24

swept ‘24, 3.9.24

maaaaaaaaaaaaan. unc swept us this year. how did a 6th (sixth!!) year grad student put up a career high of 31 on us at home, smh. i hope we see unc in the tourney next week in dc, because we need revenge before the big dance.

gthcccccc.

-ratha, 9:01pm, 3.9.24

sundress, 3.8.24

you said there are certain songs that just do something to you as we ate coldstone in my car. instead of the mint, i got one scoop cake batter and one scoop banana pudding. you said the banana pudding was too sweet, to which i agreed by the end of my dessert. one scoop cake batter, one scoop mint is my go-to moving foward. anyways, back to you saying there are certain songs that do something to you. i asked you to play a few and you played some. two of those songs did something to me as well. i didn’t know what i felt, but it made me feel something. i love being put on to new things, especially music that inspires me.

i got home a while ago, but i haven’t been able to stop listening to the songs that do something to you.

-ratha, 11:39pm, 3.8.24

cheerwine in cambridge, 3.7.24

we went out to dinner tonight and they had cheerwine at the restaurant. i was surprised because cheerwine is a north carolina thing. i love cheerwine. i always get it from cookout when i get the cookout tray, but i haven’t had one in so long. even the past two times i went back to nc i opted for bojangles over cookout, so it’s gotta be a year or two since i’ve had cheerwine at least. it was so good.

i should’ve bought another, but i wanna chill on the sugars for now.

-ratha, 8:23pm, 3.7.24

coming home lateee promotion, 3.6.24

i compiled a list of digital artist whose work i enjoy and have reached out for commissions tonight. i’m hoping some of them respond so i can build a rapport with one of them for the promotion of coming home lateee and the 3 singles released beforehand. though i haven’t seen much momentum from the work i’ve been putting in, it all feels very real.

you’d be surprised at how far trying gets you in this lifetime.

-ratha, 11:02pm, 3.6.24

head-resting, 3.5.24

one of my favorite things bagel does is he will rest his head on you from time. bagel’s not a big cuddler, nor is he very affectionate, but he will rest his head on you. i was laying down browsing some writing earlier tonight. bagel came over, jumped on the bed, and rested his head on my lower back. i was thinking of getting up to get some food, but since he fell asleep like that, i got lost on tiktok for 20 minutes as i didn’t want to wake him up. when it was time to get up, he was a good sport about it, as he always is. i can’t remember the last time he fell asleep with his head on me, but tonight was a moment that brought me back to the night i first got him and he fell asleep with his head on the bolster bed i bought for him from petsmart that chilly night in november of 2012.

forever my baby boy.

-ratha, 9:31pm, 3.5.24

karma at burlington, 3.4.24

we went to karma at burlington tonight. the food was actually pretty decent, minus the calamari. i’m not a fan of calamari without the sauce, but i’ve been to a few places that bread the calamari and garnish the breading. the sushi was pretty good. the general gao’s chicken was actually very good. is it me, or what the fuck is up with the naming? i could’ve sworn it used to be general tso’s chicken, but now all i see is general gao. could this be the mandela effect? either way, we stayed conversing up until they began to close.

safe to say we’ll be back again.

-ratha, 11:02pm, 3.4.24

park days back, 3.3.24

it was 56 degrees today, which is a little warm for this time of the year. with that said, bagel and i went to the park. there were a ton people there, even some in shorts and a shirt lol. we got a mile and a half in then came back home. spring is right around the corner. i can’t believe it. when i think about certain things, it’s crazy how they change. life really does go on as time never stops.

i should really try to keep up more, but it’s difficult some days.

-ratha, 6:32pm, 3.3.24

a tough morning, 3.2.24

i just realized i broke my lent last night because i had some candy from the asian store, smh. i’ll have to extend lent by one day, so no candy until april it seems. also, you know when you’re asleep but you wake up and you feel sensations, but you’re not fully conscious? this morning i kept feeling a sense of soreness in my nose. i thought it was wierd, but i was so tired i kept sleeping. when i got up, my piercing was hanging diagonal out my nose! i was so fucking scared. my heart started racing. because i have a corkscrew, i didn’t know what to do. i took a few deep breaths and pushed it back in. there was some blood, and my nose is still store. i don’t know how i got it back in, but slowly but surely it went back in place. i washed my nose and the area around with mild soap that my piercer gave me, then when it was dry, i sprayed it with h2ocean. i’m lowkey anxious to go to sleep again lol. i might just go out and buy a bandaid to put on during the night. i just can’t wait until it is fully healed.

it was a tough morning, but we have a good night planned ahead of us.

-ratha, 11:23am, 3.2.24