long weekends, 5.26.23

this weekend will be memorial day weekend, which means monday is a day off, which means next week is a short week. the weather is supposed to be beautiful this weekend, 60’s, 70’s, 80’s, then 60’s on monday again, respectively. based off coworker recommendations and research, there are places i’ve been wanting to eat at that i’ve built a list off of. the goal would be to hit two places (at least!) this weekend. i might also stop by copley place and do a little shopping. plus hit the park with bagel.

this should be a good one, i’m ready to see what’s in-store for me this weekend.

-ratha, 12:09pm, 5.26.23

the raw, 5.25.23

after dinner tonight, my mom baked some cake. before she put it in the pan, i finished wisking and ate some of the raw mix. ever since i was a kid, we always used to eat the mix. i don’t know what it is, but it’s so damn good. it’ll fuck up your stomach if you eat too much, but it’s hard not to.

here’s to hoping i don’t find myself in a bad predicament later on tonight because i over-indulged.

-ratha, 6:24pm, 5.25.23

self-care wednesdays, 5.24.23

as soon as i get to the car with bagel, it starts raining. i drive home. my mom said she is frying up wings in about 30 minutes. i told her i was going to take a shower. when i get upstairs, i pull from my body towels and it’s one of the cotton ones, not the microfiber ones. i use the cotton ones for face exfoliating. i took it as a sign to do a mask. i put a mask on, touched up my facial hair, and did the water floss. i took a shower and had enough appetite for some rice and wings. i’m going to do some under eye patches and call it a night. i might vacuum, too. this is like a saturday night, but in the middle of the week.

the past few days i haven’t been eating and it’s been hard for me to get out of bed, so i will take tonight as a step in the right direction.

-ratha, 10:17pm, 5.24.23

summering around, 5.23.23

today is such a beautiful tuesday. the weather is 72. it’s decently breezy, but if you stand still, you can feel the sun on your skin. summer is right around the corner and i can feel it.

i’m ready for more walks at ipswich with bagel, more wearing shorts, more being outside, and more good vibes.

-ratha, 2:42pm 5.23.23

in the fridge for a year, 5.22.23

there’s this post-it note i put in the sample deli fridge at work along with some samples last year. that’s how i label when i know i will need a sample soon. it was labeled 20may2022. i didn’t see it for a while, then it reappeared a few months ago. i thought somebody would move it, but nobody has touched it. it’s crazy because that fridge is used every day by every team by multiple people. i was keeping track of the post-it note to see if it would make it to a year, and literally the post-it note has been there for over a year this past weekend. it was another reminder how quick a year can pass and how much can happen in a year. curious, i wanted to know what i did last year on may 20th 2022. it was the day i went out to eat at a southern joint in tewksbury, but didn’t get acknowledged by the staff. i remember that day vivid because i told e i was going to call him after my meal as i walked in, then i ended up calling him back a few minutes later lmao. i’m glad i wrote about that night because i would’ve forgotten all about it had i not.

a year?!? come on.

https://rdl4ever.tumblr.com/post/684927386882637824/coming-across-a-good-burger-52022

-ratha, 2:28pm, 5.22.23

68 and shining, 5.21.23

it’s 68 degrees and the sun is out. yesterday it was raining, so we couldn’t hit the park, but today was the perfect day for a walk at ipswich with bagel. we did 3 rounds, which was awesome because bagel has been doing 2 rounds lately. i guess it’s due to his age, but it feels good when we can get back to routine in terms of what we used to do. he’s 10 years old, almost 11, but he still has such a great energy to him. i’m truly thankful.

the walk helped clear my mind, but i still don’t know how to feel about things between us.

-ratha, 3:28pm, 5.21.23

the blindside, 5.20.23

my loyalty is unwavering and i hate that it’s in question. we’ve all been through things, i get it, but the blame shouldn’t shift to me. being blindsided by things that can be explained with a simple conversation and a few messages shouldn’t cause this much turmoil. i hate that you’re hurt over things which can be proven to not be true. i’ve never been anything but honest with you, and honestly i wonder who’s in your ear these days, because it seems they’re trying to steer you away from me for whatever reasons they may have.

if it’s an emotional reaction, i can relate, but rest assured things are much different than what false narratives have been concluded through assumptions.

-ratha, 11:03am, 5.20.23

commute talk, 5.19.23

we were driving to the airport talking about a bunch of things. alan just picked his car up from getting serviced last night. he said they gave him a sedan and he kind of liked it. then he asked me where i stand on getting a car. i told him it’s still between the challenger and the audi, but honestly i’d rock anything for a commute, even a prius. then he said the goal was not to have a commute. it resonated with me. that’s a fact. i need passive income + passion income. this weekend i have to open up my business bank account and then finish setting up my laptop. this is the last summer i’m going to have to worry about pto.

and commutes if we’re being honest.

-ratha, 2:23pm, 5.19.23

the road to 0.500, 5.18.23

i’m liking the thursday hoop sessions. it’s the perfect pre-weekend activity. we dropped the first game, then won 3 in a row. i was going to leave but they said they needed bodies. i played one more and we lost by 2. the last two games i was throwing up shots because i didn’t have my legs beneath me. i told e i shouldn’t have played the last game as it brought my record down to 3-2 for 3-1, but he said the ones we don’t feel like playing are the games we need to play the most. when you put it like that, it makes the most sense to not skip out on games. that’s 3-2 for two weeks in a row. next week we’ll aim for one loss, even better if there’s none.

overall record: 6-8. (42.8% win percentage)

-ratha, 9:11pm, 5.18.23

back at work, 5.17.23

fought traffic to come to work. i had a hard time finding a parking spot, so i was going to park behind a column (others do this, too) and the parking guy came and told me i couldn’t park there. then when i get to lab, we have a hiccup on one of our experiments due to a defective membrane. it pushes us back until later in the evening. i don’t end up leaving until 7:30pm. my supervisor said i can comp a meal on the company card, but i don’t bring my wallet to work, so i think i’ll comp tomorrow’s dinner after hooping instead. as frustrating as things are right now, i question if i’ll ever miss this time in my life when it all works out for me.

something tells me i will, but it’s hard to be grateful in the moment sometimes.

-ratha, 8:12pm, 5.17.23