sleeping sundays, 7.3.22

i slept all day today. i got up at 4am. let bagel out. i slept until noon. then i helped my mom unload groceries from costco, then i slept until 8pm. it’s 10:01pm and i’m having my first meal of the day. it’s a chicken sandwhich, fries, and two double cheeseburgers from burger king. bagel and i walked 1.6 miles earlier when i woke up from my 2nd nap, and luckily for me, that’s all the responsibility sundays come with. time to shower, then fall asleep.

there’s plans to go to the lake tomorrow, so you know i have to rest up.

-ratha, 11:32pm, 7.3.22

the last day, 7.2.22

today was my aunties’ and my cousin’s last day in boston. we dropped them off at the airport at 1:30pm because their flight was at 4:00pm. while i was pulling in to a parking spot, it sounded like a bomb went off. people in the parking deck walking by were looking. when i got out the car, it was a ceramic bowl with food in it. who tf would leave that in a parking space?? i told my cousin i would be in la end of summer, hopefully to catch a chargers game. we were planning and the only weekend they are in la i can make it is the weekend the jaguars are in town. maybe i can get revenge for the last time i saw the chargers in jacksonville and we lost in ot against them. they play the raiders opening weekend, but that’s a day before bagel’s birthday and i plan on taking him on a trip somewhere. either way, my cousin said there’s korean bbq spots open until 2am, so that’s more of a reason to hit la. it’s been over 10 years since we linked, but before she left, i told her it wouldn’t be that long until the next time.

september it is.

-ratha, 2:42pm, 7.2.22

eating good with the buzzin, 7.1.22

last night we ate at an all you can eat korean bbq spot. the galbi was too damn good. i got mild wings and still they were too hot for me. i told my cousin that the spicy-tolerant gene skipped me and went to her lmao. tonight, we found an indian spot in wakefield. it was so, so good. the tikka came in a small portion (thanks to my cousin for asking) so i got two. top that off with garlic naan and we were in business. we got ice cream afterwards, and the girl warned me the bubble gum flavor came with actual bubble gum, but i told her it was aight. it was all good until i started eating it and there was bubble gum i had to spit out in every bite like some watermelon seeds.

i ended up throwing the cone away, but even with that, we were eating good at dinner these past two nights.

-ratha, 10:45pm, 7.1.22

btg's annual, 6.30.22

i took the morning off to take btg to the vet. the doctor that came in was not dr. carol, but she was extremely thorough. she made a mental map of bagel’s lipomas, noticed his left eye, and answered all my questions. i typically have a lot of questions (which can be annoying) and she had the utmost patience and professionalism. she said bagel is in good health, which makes me more appreciative than anything. i felt bad because one of the vet techs couldn’t get blood from one of bagel’s arms, so they tried his other one. it’s not their fault. bagel doesn’t know what’s happening and getting pricked sucks. we just came home and i’m watching a documentary about the cocaine cowboys while i get ready for work. mom is cooking some stir fry for lunch and dad should come back from indiana today.

such is a regular thursday during the last day of june in the year of 2022.

-ratha, 11:38am, 6.30.22

missing encore, 6.29.22

today was supposed to be a quick day at work, especially since i arrived early. turns out, it wasn’t. my mom texted me around noon saying her, my two aunties, my grandpa, and my cousin were going back to encore. i told her i wouldn’t be able to make it due to the unexpected nature of work.

i wanted to go, but perhaps it’s best i didn’t make it since i lost $77 last weekend.

-ratha, 3:45pm 6.29.22

the june apple badge, 6.28.22

my apple watch june challenge is to run or walk 166.5 miles for the whole month. including today, i have 3 days left to compile approximately 21 miles. this morning at the gym was strictly cardio with the exception of a couple of bicep sets. i did 3 miles on the treadmill. i need 4 more in order to maintain a 7 mile a day pace for the badge. if the weather maintains, i’ll hit the park with bagel to knock off another 2.5. that means i have to find 1.5 elsewhere, smh.

that’s a lot of running and walking, but i’m up for the task at hand.

-ratha, 12:21pm, 6.28.22

directing my life in compass, 6.27.22

first off, happy gday to my brother dbaze. i literally spent an hour looking for a photo of us from a party freshman year last night, but couldn’t find it anywhere, smh. i’ll save it for next year should i find it. i had a meeting with my dad’s mentor. we talked about work, where i am in life, the similarity in our work experiences, and my future. i told him i wanted to be a writer and that it’s a burning desire. i’m extremely grateful for his presence not only in my dad’s life, but in my life, too. he was the driving force in bringing me onboard, and for him to take time out of his day to meet with me, definitely meant a lot. it’s a lot of pressure on me right now, but i’m feeling more ready than ever to make the jump. if i don’t fly, i’ll fall. if i fall, it’s sink or swim, and i’ve never considered myself one to sink.

despite all of this, something tells me i’ll have to get used to my fear of heights.

-ratha, 2:54pm, 6.27.22

southern-like days, 6.26.22

today was upper 80’s. i think it peaked at 91 some time this afternoon. this is perfect weather. i love when it’s warm. crazy thing is, the heat leaves as soon as the sun begins to set. theoretically this makes sense, but back home, we’d have warm nights after the sun went down. that’s one of the main things i miss most about north carolina. even though the days were too hot to be outside, the nights were exceptional.

after this toxicology study is over, i’m headed back no question.

-ratha, 8:41pm, 6.26.22

copley place, 6.25.22

i hit copley place with cousin today. it was my first time there, and all them stores was high-end. dior, moncler, gucci, etc. i thought it was going be some regular people stores like nike and adidas, but i was wrong. we went into the louis vuitton store but they didn’t have any of the pocket organizers i saw online. i really need a new wallet, especially one that’s slim. the wallet i’ve had for the past 7 years has been slowly falling a part. the one i had before that was the same one i have now, but in orange. i can’t find any of the same on ebay, but i’m taking that as a sign i should move on from this specific wallet.

time for new and better things.

-ratha, 6:24pm, 6.25.22

some days, 6.24.22

some days i look around and it’s like i’m miserable. other days i look around and think, you know what, life could be worse, it’s not so bad after all. but i don’t want to look at my life like it’s not so bad. i want to look at my life like it’s good and it’s everything i deserve and more. i want to be surrounded by such positive abundance that i’m more focused on what i have than what i’m missing.
and right now?

it seems i’m missing a lot.

-ratha, 2:42am, 6.24.22