yesterday was an unexpected break from the cold. it was 60 degrees with a nice windchill. today, i woke up to snow. it snowed all day. i’ve seen weather switch in north carolina, but nothing like this. i wonder how much longer winter will last.
with weather like this, it’s no telling.
-ratha, 12:24pm, 2.13.22
i woke up and saw duke was in town tonight. i totally forgot boston college played in the acc, but i looked up tickets and bought one. the game was at 5pm, so i left at 3:20pm. i got some gas and was on my way. i literally sat in traffic for an hour and 10 minutes for the last three miles. it worked out though because i got to park right in front of the conte forum for free. the officer waved me in because the parking deck across was full. when i got in, the atmosphere was rocking. it was an intimate venue, and the crowd was going crazy. the eagles kept up with duke for most of the first half, but in the second half the blue devils took over. i’ve been smoking on that boston pack all week. first the hurricanes beat the bruins, then uncc softball beat boston university, and now duke beat boston college. felt good to see coach k in his last game at the conte forum, but lowkey, it might’ve been my last time seeing coach k.
actually, i might catch him at the acc tourney if they have it in brooklyn this year.
i gotta look it up.
-ratha, 10:03pm, 2.12.22
going to the game last night was fantastic, i’m
thinking i should get out the house more. looking at the city in the cab back
to kendall square inspired me. there’s so many people out here to meet, so many
women to connect with, so many new things to experience. i had this talk two
years ago with dono when dbaze, franko, reggie, reza, and sebastian went out to
rosemont. i owe it to both of us to live life on max. with dono gone, i feel
like i’m living for the both of us. i still remember driving home in the
sequoia telling him how getting out made me feel like someone new. i wanted to
call him on the way home and tell him about my night at the td garden. because
i couldn’t, i day dreamnt about what he would tell me in between high beams and
brake lights on I-93. dono would prolly laugh and tell me i needa take a break
from staying in, then go on to reflect on how that night at rosemont was two
years ago. two years ago…it feels much longer than that though, hanging with
dono feels like a lifetime ago. damn, i miss my brother so much. i go through
phases where i stay in, then i go out, then i stay in, then i go out. it’s like
waves of comfort -> fomo -> change of pace -> staying in.
i think i’m in a change of pace phase at the moment…
-ratha, 9:45am, 2.11.22
tonight, i went to my first ever hockey game. it
was the canes vs the bruins. what a great time it was. i went with my dog dan
and it couldn’t have gone better, at least for us carolina fans. the only time
i’ve ever watched was when carolina won the stanley cup in the mid-2000’s. i
don’t watch hockey, but i might have to after tonight. it was truly, truly
exciting. there was a fight, there was an overturned call, and there was a shutout. hurricanes 6-0. i was too turnt up! i’ll have to go into detail when i get
the photos developed from tonight, but man what a time. i can’t say it enough.
don’t know why i never caught a game at the pnc, but i’m a fan now.
-ratha, 11:06pm, 2.10.22
i asked one of my coworkers has she ever had to make a change to avoid regret, and if so, how she did it. she told me she had to go through a short-term valley to experience a hill in the long-term. i’m paraphrasing on behalf of her, but i thought that made so much sense. she said also, the sooner she began to make changes, the better because the longer you wait to make one, the worse the regret becomes. i think i’m feeling the effects of waiting, and trust, it’s not a good feeling to carry.
the good thing is that i carry my future in the same hands i carry these regrets, and i know which one to keep with me and which one to leave behind.
-ratha, 8:26pm, 2.9.22
i didn’t eat lunch until 2:15pm today, but i left at 3:20pm so i guess it evens out. i got home while the sun was up, but i took a nap. i just woke up and now i have to be asleep in 3 hours.
smh, i can’t be doing this for the next 40 years, not even the next two.
-ratha, 6:42pm, 2.8.22
otw home from work, i thought about the hurricanes game on thursday and how i want to bring a film camera in to take photos. then i thought how i don’t have any film, so in near-standstill traffic, i googled photo shops. i came across the closest one and it was through stoneham. while driving, i realized i had taken this exact route to meet up for burgers with someone last summer. when i got there, the store was huge. it was much bigger than biggs back in charlotte. i ended up getting 3 rolls, and the cashier asked me if this store was what i expected a photo shop to be. i told her no and she said ‘right, it’s like a best buy.’
it really was, and i think next time i go back to develop film i’ll definitely take a look around at all they have to offer.
-ratha, 7:05pm, 2.7.22
when you keep working, you eventually hit a break through. last night, i went in the studio to record a new song, real one, and when i began recording, there was no latency. latency is the playback of your voice as you record into the mic in real-time. if it’s off, it makes everything extremely difficult as music is rhythm and rhythm is 100% timing. i’ve been battling latency issues for the past month or so, ever since i began recording. it felt good to actually have both sides of the headphones on and hear myself. the first session for real one sounded good, and i hope it’ll continue to sound better with every recording.
though the journey is filled with many ups, downs, and roadblocks, i’ve got a feeling i’m turning the corner with this music thing.
got a long way to go, but this feels good.
-ratha, 11:32am, 2.6.22
duke whooped unc for coach k’s last game at the dean dome. 20 piece mcnugget for that ass, how you like that?! great game, let’s repeat on senior night for coach k’s final game at cameron indoor.
gthc.
-ratha, 8:31pm, 2.5.22
we had a wfh day due to the ice storm. it’s really skraight ice outside. i walked to the backyard with bagel to let him out and i could feel it, like this precipitation got some weight to it lol. i have one meeting at 9am, then i’m on chill mode for the rest of the day. bagel has been at my hip all morning. he always is when i spend the day home. i think he misses the days when we would spend nearly every waking hour together, and truth be told i do, too.
hope everybody is staying safe out there, y'all know my plans for the rest of the day.
-ratha, 8:44am, 2.4.22
