lately i’ve been watching tons of television. not anything specific, just anything. today i watched teen kids news, which reminded me of everything sucks, and how i wish i would’ve been in the av club in high school, but i’m not sure holly springs had one. then high fidelity was on laff tv!! high fidelity is that movie, john cusack is that guy, and lisa bonet is that woman. laff tv might as well be that station because they had a different world on earlier this week. after, i watched the pacers beat the cavs in game 1 of round 1 of the nba playoffs. later in the night i began watching a netflix movie titled, happy anniversary. then after that, i watched comey’s exclusive abc interview.
it’s uncharacteristic of me to watch this much television. i’m typically active, doing other things with my time. it’s a sign, a sign i’m running away from something bigger than my fears and my insecurities. i won’t know what it is until i stop and face the current state of my life head on, but that’s something i won’t be looking forward to.
the marathon continues.
-ratha, 11:08pm, 4.15.18