wfh days, 1.4.22

coming out of the new year, my company is being strict on covid guidelines. because of this, i worked from home today. it wasn’t too bad, just answering emails all day and calculating buffer needs heading into tox. while i was working, my mom and her cousin went to sam’s club in new hampshire and they came back with meatball subs (my fav) from subway. it’s pretty early, but i think i’m done for the day. all i have left is a meeting at 4:30pm, and that will wrap it up officially for today’s episode of wfh.

-ratha, 3:15pm, 1.4.22

half-days, 1.3.22

the first day back after 3 weeks off? not as bad as i thought. i skipped the 5am workout and set my alarm for 6:45am. last night i got off the phone with e at like 12:10am. he had just won both his fantasy football leagues so we was hyped off that. whenever he win, i feel like i win, so it’s nice to start the year off winning regardless if my two fantasy teams made it or not. anyways, i woke up and i thought it had to be 5’ something, when i look at my phone, its 6:38am. 7 minutes before my alarm. i hate when that happens, smh. i got to work, missed most of a meeting that began at 8am, then went to do a few calculations. after a while, there was nothing to do in lab, so i came home. as i pull up, the amazon driver is in the driveway dropping off bagel’s new bed. we go on a walk, then my mom comes home and we talk about our days.
it’s 4:25pm right now, and i’m at home writing.

not a bad start to the week at all.

-ratha, 4:26pm, 1.3.22

dirty water, 1.2.22

over pizza on newbury street, someone said they needed to catch up on my blog. they said my writing was really good and when i responded that it was alright, they said i shouldn’t shy away from being a great writer, because i know my writing is great. it meant a lot to me, yet it was surreal that someone paid attention to my writing.

i think in this life, we all have greatness in us, and finding the courage to claim it without arrogance is a journey in itself, but one thing is for sure; i’m not going to shy away from these things anymore.

-ratha, 10:41pm, 1.2.22

goat day, 1.1.22

happy birthday dad!!! my hero, i owe you everything and more. 2022 will be an even better year for the both of us and i couldn’t be more thankful god chose you to be my father in this lifetime. i’m truly blessed to be your son.

i love you forever!!

-ratha, 10:42am, 1.1.22

farewell 2021, 12.31.21

the last day of 2021, how unbelievable is that? another year has already passed, just like that. we really are living on a flight when i think about it. this year was a decent year in all honesty, but nonetheless it was still a year of adjustment. there were good times and there were terrible times. not everyone i love made it to this day, that’s why i gotta show love everyday i’m here. i’ve learned that if you miss someone (and you can hit them up) just do it. forget about everything else. if you want to do something, if you want to travel, if you want to love, if you want to take a day to yourself, whatever you want to do, just do it. it’s no time like the present. i’m realizing this after years or robbing myself of gratitude for the moment.

happy new years eve if you’re reading this.

i hope you have the time of your life and make it home safely.

-ratha, 11:03pm, 12.31.21

saying whats up, 12.30.21

i was on the phone with your dad tonight. we were talking about the storage unit, then it lead to other things. last week you got an award for your donation of your cataracts. someone can see because of you, which is so amazing. i remember in october your dad told me you helped 20-30 people, so indeed you do live on in the physical. that’s incredible when i think about it. we talked about your ashes which is still an unreal conversation i couldn’t believe i was having with him. the conversation went to your sister and how she got another puppy for mona. of course you probably already knew this, i know you woulda loved the extra company. bagel still doesn’t know what happened to you, and he would be heartbroken if he did.

but yea, anyways just wanted to update you bro.

love you forever.

-ratha, 8:11pm, 12.30.21

bad schedules, 12.29.21

the past week my sleep schedule has slipped up heavy. i’ve been staying up until 4am, 5am and sleeping until 12pm at least. i really gotta fix it this weekend before work next week. can’t believe these 3 weeks off is coming to an end. i didn’t take a trip and things didn’t pan out how i planned, but i did get a lot of work done. i gotta keep reminding myself 6 months of hard work can change the pathway of my life forever.

if you’re looking for me, you know where to find me.

out the mix and doing meeeeeeeeeee.

-ratha, 4:42am, 12.29.21

27th in heaven, 12.28.21

happy g day brother. your dad texted me a photo of your portrait surrounded by birthday balloons. i told him thank you for sending it to me and that i hope he’s doing well. last year wasn’t the best of birthdays for you either. i guess we gotta go back to 2019 for the last good birthday you had. that’s heartbreaking, but i know you are at peace now and i’m trying to find comfort in that regardless of how i feel.

happy 27th!! i love you bro!!!!

we goin keep celebrating forever!!!!

-ratha, 12.28.21, 3:55pm

track 1, 12.27.21

i finally got my license dropped into my ilok account this morning. i began recording for staying over, leaving early. i started with staying over, and at first it was hard for me to catch on because i had latency, but we made things work. i was having fun recording, especially because now i’m being more open with the universe and god on what i want out of life. by the end of the session, i ended up ordering a newer audio interface that should be here by wednesday. someone asked me what i was up to tonight and when i said recording, they seemed surprised that i was serious when i initially brought it up a few days ago. they said i had a good voice, and that had me feeling like i could conquer whatever discretion between how i hear myself vs when i hear myself on playback that i have. i’m going to keep the momentum going into the new year. i’m beginning to lock in and be honest with life for what i want out of it. 6 months from now, let’s see where i’m at.

until then lemme get these bars up.

-ratha, 11:55pm, 12.27.21

waking up to l's, 12.26.21

i fell asleep during the one o'clock games. when i woke up, the chargers lost and i was getting pummeled in fantasy in both my espn and yahoo leagues. everybody i played against had career games lmaoooo. no more fantasy for me for a while. it’s too much of a time commitment, especially around the holidays. regardless, hope my bolts and colts can find a way in to the playoffs!!

-ratha, 4:52pm, 12.26.21