usually i write by hand in a notebook of my daily
activities, but after the funeral i haven’t been keeping up. i’ve done that
everyday for the past 6 years. i don’t know whether it’s because i’ve become
lazy or whether it’s because i don’t find it necessary. i think the past month
and a half i have forgotten many things which i should’ve wrote down, but i’m
writing things based off an improved-memory because if i can’t remember, then i
can’t write. and lately i’ve been writing more than i have in recent memory, so
i can’t tell whether or not my lack of upkeep in my daily journal is a good
thing or a bad thing.
maybe it’s a little of both.
-ratha, 2:13pm, 11.15.21