love is such a unique entity in this universe.
love can be waking up together. love can be alone time a part. love can be
trips to the grocery store. love can be warming up the shower for one another.
love can be cooking new recipes together. love can be comforting. love can be
challenging. love can be many different things. the best thing i’ve read on
love is something i came across on a teabag years ago. it read that love is an
infinite experience. i could not in all my years of existing, come up with a better
way to put it. because what i feel with you is infinite. i know, i watch too
much sports. i read into politics too much. i like being alone. it’s hard for
you to read me as i don’t show emotion because it’s all on some paper in my
closet, or on some song i recorded that nobody will ever hear. it hurts me
seeing you emotional. before you left, you told me you’ll let god handle things
and to take care. as hard as it is to put things in the hands of the divine at
a time like this, i think i’ll do the same. what i’ve learned most is love is
an emotion of selfish-intent, yet a decision of selfless-action, and sometimes
straddling that line is like skating on thin ice.
and shall it ever break, i’m hoping i’m the one to sink.
-ratha, 4:43pm, 10.30.20