transparent imposter syndrome, 1.21.25

i’ve been sitting on a song called transparency for a week or so now. i think it’s done to the best of my ability, but i’ve been afraid to send it off for mixing and mastering. i get so nervous at the thought of releasing music that i could throw up. i did a good job last year releasing some songs and even a project, but since it’s been 4 months since my last drop, all the nerves came back full force. tonight, i ended up sending it in so we’re due for a drop either late january or early february. if the timing doesn’t work out for the end of the month, i’ll drop two in february.

when it all works out, the thing i’ll really beat myself up for is me holding myself back smh.

-ratha, 11:04pm, 1.21.25