the year of being all over, 12.29.23

i had to end the year with my year in review on the 29th. it was a long post, about 3600 words, which is about 3x longer than my normal year in review but it makes sense because it was a long year. dealing with some of the things i’ve dealt with this past year…..i sometimes feel like life isn’t real. to act or to react? to fight or to surrender. to let go and let God or to believe in willpower? it goes to show how quickly life can change and the power of a single decision.

i think i’m dissociating right now and i don’t know when i’ll feel like myself again.

-ratha, 4:14pm, 12.29.23