i shed tears last night when i got word you were in the icu fighting for your life. i had to reread it several times. you’re family forever, and it’s one of the most frustrating predicaments to be in where i find myself of no assistance. i can’t even pick up the phone to hit you and talk to you at the moment. all i can do is hope and pray for you. i looked through our texts to see when the last time we spoke was and it was in december. a rush of emotions came over me as i realized how fragile this life we live can be. in my heart though, i know you’ll make it. there’s no other way. this shit can’t be real. we’ve got a lot of living left to do.
life has its ways of humbling us, and i haven’t been this unsettled in a long time.
praying.
-ratha, 4:31pm, 2.9.19