the agreement, 12.20.22

we were walking back to your car after lunch with your mom. right before getting in the car, she asked if i was moving back to north carolina in the near future after finding out i’ve been in new england for a little less than two years. i told her that was the plan at some point, then you said moving to nc was part of the agreement, which caught me off guard. i don’t think we ever explicitly mentioned us relocating to nc, so i never knew how anyone but myself felt about it. i do mention it to you from time i’m going back to nc to raise a family and live my life, because i do think it’s the best place in the world, but i didn’t know how you felt about it. maybe your willingness to move back home with me, if or when the time comes, speaks less about how you feel about 919 and more how you feel about me. damn. i guess because we get so caught up on trivial things, we never really talk about how we feel. or maybe i’m not paying attention to how serious you’re taking these things. perhaps i’m not giving you enough credit, because at the end of the day we’re both nervous, but that made me feel better about things.

we’re both a long way from then, and though anything can change at any moment, i hope those plans remain as agreed upon.

-ratha, 7:23pm, 12.20.22