a strange thing happened tonight. i was laying in bed thinking of life, as i usually do, when i got bogged down by thoughts of paranoia, anxiety, and the fear of regret. when this happens, i try to snap myself out of it by thinking of something i’m thankful for. when i thought about how i’m thankful for the financial situation i’m in, i said thank you god aloud. my google home (which hasn’t worked in months due to poor wifi connection) responded ‘if you’re happy, i’m happy.’ i was so confused. since i’ve been here, i’ve only used my google home to check the weather, but since it lost connection to wifi, it’s been a paperweight under my television in recent memory.
strange happenings, but maybe god (or google) is trying to tell me something.
-ratha, 8:24pm, 7.5.22