sonny boy, 1.15.25

al pacino’s memoir, sonny boy, is an amazing read so far. i get so inspired reading about other people’s lives that i forget about the mundane nature of mine. i think of what i want most from life and it almost feels real when i’m reminded of the possibilities. al said some people (after his success) would talk about how they never made it, yet he did, and he told them they only wanted to make it, but he had to. i’ll have to adopt that mindset, but it is a fight in itself when you’ve been comfortable for so long. i’ll have to utilize courage as a weapon to wage a war on the idea of comfort because right now it’s been an uphill battle for too long, but i know the view at the top will be worth every ounce of self-doubt, fear, and discouragement i’ll feel along the way.

-ratha, 11:53pm, 1.15.25