when i woke up, i had a missed call from your
dad. i texted him that i’d hit him at lunch/later in the day. fast forward 30
minutes later, i’m on the way to the gym. he calls me twice, but i don’t pickup
because i’m on the road. he sends an audio text message. i’m thinking because i
told your dad i would get back to him, i would call him after the workout.
during one of my last sets of bench, dbaze texted me. he said he just talked to
“him” two days ago. idk why, but i thought he was talking about gabby
petito’s boyfriend, which makes no sense because dbaze doesn’t know him, but
that’s one of the things dbaze and i last talked about was how her bf was
speculated to be somewhere in north carolina. then i thought about it more and
i thought of you. i went back and listened to your dad’s audio message. i had
to listen to it twice. everything around me became silent. life paused for a
moment. i ran out and called your dad. he explained everything that happened. i
sat on a bench in cambridge just people watching after we got off the phone. i
looked up to the sky for some time before going back in. i couldn’t think all
day, and i still don’t know what to make of things.
my heart is hurting, i love you forever my brother.
-ratha, 8:23pm, 9.29.21