i have an incredible urge to spend money at the
moment, but i know i should save. there’s a few things in particular i want to
purchase, and although i have ample amount of funds for them, i haven’t spent
money in so long that i’ve reached a point where spending money makes me feel
guilty. perhaps it’s an innate psychological defense mechanism that prevents me
from spending.
whether it is real or it is not, it’s working.
-ratha, 4:35pm, 4.11.21