i was on the phone with e last night and he asked if i heard that one of our classmates from hshs passed away. i told him nah, and asked what happened. e said he didn’t know. i wasn’t close with the guy, but it makes me anxious hearing people our age or younger pass away. i searched his facebook and found out he killed himself. i remember seeing him almost every day for years because we went to high school together. we may have even went to middle school with each other at holly ridge, though my memory is a bit hazy from that time. i think about how there are so many people we cross paths with and how we eventually all go our separate ways. it’s so sad. i told e he committed suicide and e asked if i remembered the girl who committed suicide a few years ago that we also went to school with. i totally forgot about her. i don’t want to remember these things because when i think about it, the names start adding up.
sometimes i just want to go back to the mid-2000’s when we were all kids and
everybody was happy, and if we said weren’t happy, we were just going through teenage angst.
-ratha, 9:43pm, 9.7.22