i took my last exam today. it was for organic chemistry. i was supposed to take it yesterday, but i had my bio exam at the same time so it got rescheduled to this morning. there were 3 other girls taking the exam in the room with me. it wasn’t hard, but it wasn’t easy. there were things i felt i knew, and things i felt i should’ve known, as is with all exams. i finished and headed to cfa to eat. i checked my phone and stephan texted me how it’s almost a year since we left firebirds. then i remembered our last day was saturday december 23rd 2017. its been a year?? already?? jess texted me asking how the exam went. we discussed the synthesis problem along with the extra credit drawing. at the beginning of the semester, it felt good to be back in school. today after i turned my exam in, it felt good to be done with the semester. i’m learning to take life in portions and to digest what i can. everything is a process, whether it be a process of progress, a process of acceptance, or a process of understanding. i’m a result-oriented person caught up in what seems to be a mirage of processes, perhaps i need some guidance on this path to understanding.
i should really slow things down and enjoy what is for the moment.
-ratha, 3:58pm, 12.12.12