parts of the process, 2.15.25

it seems everything i’ve been recording since december has been ass lmao. i don’t know what it is, but it’s driving me insane. i gotta lock-in on the recording levels because i know they’re off, so that’s a start, but everything else is a mystery to me. i don’t know if it’s winter and it’s because my sinuses are acting up, though they act up year-round, but it’s frustrating. i keep telling myself not to give up despite the discouragement, but still it’s not a good place to be creatively. i have to remind myself that this is the toughest part of the journey. once i begin gaining traction, i’ll have audio engineers with me figuring it out, plus i’ll be more experienced in recording. those days can’t get here quick enough, though i shouldn’t be wishing away my journey.

we’ll get things right soon enough.

-ratha, 11:03pm, 2.15.25