finding something to get into this evening, chan wanted to go rock wall climbing. we found a spot in stoneham after being lead astray by bad gps directions. i wasn’t even sure i was going to climb, but i gave it a try. after climbing up one of the auto-belayed courses 15 feet, i got scared and came back down. my heart was racing faster than midnight club. scared of heights, i was hesitant. i kept going up little by little. eventually, the thought of bagel got me to the top. i thought of all the times he was fearful, yet he trusted me. i just had to put the trust in him. although he wasn’t there physically, he was there spiritually. i eventually climbed up another course and it felt good no lie. dad said if i did it a few more times, i’d get used to it. i want to say he’s right (as he always is), but fears are extremely difficult to overcome.
though difficult doesn’t mean impossible.
-ratha, 8:19pm, 6.12.21