it’s a week out from christmas and i’ve never felt less festive in my life. it doesn’t even feel like christmas, to be honest. i know i say and write this every year, but it’s true. my dad brought up how christmas used to be the best holiday, especially when we were younger. i agreed. it made me think that christmas is really for the kids, and you lose the spirit until you have kids of your own. i remember one year, i had a simpsons phase. i thought it was the funniest show. so that christmas, my dad ordered simpsons figures off amazon for me. when we put up the tree, he got simpsons ornaments. one i remember vividly was bart on skiis lol. then, on top of that, he bought outdoor decorations for the house. one of them was homer dressed in a santa suit, getting stuck in a chimney. man, that was one of the best christmases ever. i really miss being in the spirit, but i’m also at fault. i think i could make better decisions than simply buying gifts. next year, i’ll put some effort in decorating the house, both inside and outside. especially with my auntie, cousin, and uncle here, we’ll have a full-house again, hopefully.
still, we’ll make the best of what we have this year.
-ratha, 4:33pm, 12.18.22