i was unproductive all day up until around 6:00pm. i got up, brushed my teeth, took bagel on a walk, then fed him. when we were walking, it was misting. i got caught up in my thoughts thinking about life and everything it could be. i read this thing on twitter that said life begins to move at an increased pace as we age, therefore life is half-over by age 24/25. it feels true. everything since 2018 feels like a blur, and not in a good way. then in breaking bad, there was a scene i saw yesterday where walter tells jesse ‘the first day of the rest of your life begins now.’ he goes on to ask jesse if he wants to live in fear or hesitancy or something like that. although it was a quick scene, it resonated with me because it’s been on my mind all day.
with 30 looming, it seems a bit late to change the direction of my life completely, but i know my destination is waiting on me.
-ratha, 8:23pm, 4.5.23