making it back, 7.24.23

o got too turnt and didn’t make it back last night. he spent the night at one of his homie’s houses. i was able to get in his building by ringing all the buttons at midnight, then into his apartment. i slept in the living room thinking of all the things going on currently, and how they have to amount to something. i just don’t know what, but it was almost as if i was living alone in nyc for the night. a few things kept me up as i didn’t fall asleep until 3am. i woke up at 5:30am, got ready, boarded the bus, and came to work. i actually had a conversation with my uber drive today, too, which was interesting. he is malaysian and retired from the restaurant business 4 weeks ago. now he does uber for 12 hours a day, 6 days a week. he says the money is about the same and that he can’t stay away from making money.

anyways, i’m existing on a couple hours of sleep, but i guess the more important part is at least i’m existing.

-ratha, 4:58pm, 7.24.23