going to not need to, 7.12.25

i was on the way out of the kfc in methuen for dinner when chan called me. he asked me if i had made vacation plans since the last time we spoke. i told him i hadn’t to which he responded that i’ve been saying i needed a vacation for the past year. i really haven’t been on an actual vacation since 2023 if i’m being honest with myself. i told him the reason i can’t take a vacation is because i feel i’d be missing out on time working and that i haven’t received any traction or motion with the music or the writing. he told me a change of scenery would inspire me and that i need to live a little. it’s just difficult to feel i deserve a vacation if i haven’t seen any progress from the creative projects, but he is right. i kept telling him how i need to take one as our conversation kept going but at the end he said instead of saying ‘i need to’ say 'i’m going to.’ we hung up the phone and he said he’d call me back tonight at 11pm and by then i’d need to have bought some type of ticket somewhere.

at this point, i’ve got 30 minutes, but i’ve had a few ideas of places i’d like to go and things i’d like to experience so it shouldn’t be hard to figure things out.

-ratha, 10:32pm, 7.12.25