we came back from our walk tonight and bagel couldn’t lay down. i reached for his sides, and they were trembling, just like it was when this all started. i gave him some leftover pain medication from the beginning of summer. i don’t think it is working at all because he still refuses to lay down. i stacked pillows in front of him and he lays his head on them briefly before putting his neck down. we were supposed to hit dilworth for a check up in the next few days regardless, so i’m hoping we make it through the night and that it will get better tomorrow. he keeps wincing in pain when he tries to lay down, but right now he is getting so tired that his body is forcing him to shut it down for the night.
it’s been one thing after another these past few months, but no matter what has come, what is here, or what will happen, i’ll be right by his side.
-ratha, 11:53pm, 10.7.20