there was a chainletter in the myspace days that stuck with me. it came to mind before i fell asleep randomly. it’s pretty much a scenario where you are babysitting/housesitting for your neighbor. they call you and tell you to go get something from a specific bedroom. you go into the room, get the object, but when you walk out you see a clown statue. when the neighbors come home, you asked them when they got the clown statue. they say they never got one. that shit was so scary to me i had to share it everytime i came across it. i woke up at 3:40am thinking of that chain letter and when i looked to my side, i thought i saw a clown. it woke me up and i couldn’t sleep until 7am. i eventually went into work late at 10:30am. dad had a meeting so he worked from home, which meant i drove in. the day was long, i didn’t end up leaving until 5:45pm. tired as hell, when i walked to my car, i saw e call me at 5:10pm. he normally doesn’t call me this early, but i called him back. we end up talking until i pull up to the crib. given my lack of sleep and length of commute, being on the phone with e kept me from dozing off behind the wheel.
sometimes i feel god be saving my life on more occasions than i give him credit for.
-ratha, 7:32pm, 1.24.22