flying-in fridays, 8.23.24

we flew into the twin cities today, ate some pizza, then drove to rochester. everybody is in better spirits than i thought, but tomorrow hasn’t come yet. when i walked in, yiy cried and hugged me. she did that when she saw chan and boun, too. i feel so bad for her, because as hard as it is on us, it’s infinitely harder on her. i tried not to think too much about things, but sometimes my thoughts are like my emotions in the sense that i can’t control them when they become overwhelming. the worst part of all of this is that the worst part has even happened yet.

so many thoughts and so many emotions and not enough acceptance, experience, and wisdom to get me through.

-ratha, 10:56pm, 8.23.24