fear of repetition, 11.18.20

these days have been feeling so repetitive. it’s like my mind is gone with the wind of change, yet my body is rooted in the ground of comfort. days turn to weeks, weeks to months, months to years, so on and so forth. i saw something on the internet some years ago which read don’t live the same year 75 times and call it a life. for me, it’s don’t live the same year 7 times and call it your 20’s. i want so much more out of life, but i don’t know where to begin. i should probably begin with myself, but who i am can’t seem to crack the code of growth and development in society. nip said constant repetition is the path to progression, but i gotta find a different way to hustle.maybe i’m scared and i don’t realize it, or maybe i’m not afraid at all and don’t realize how terrifying that can be.maybe i’ll find out one day.-ratha, 2:32pm, 11.18.20