changing directions, 8.3.25

i had a long talk with chan today about the direction of the music. i told him most people suggest putting out singles and never a project, but i don’t want to do that because i like creating a body of work. i feel that a body of work captures where i was at the time of creation and if i just do singles, it’s like one never ending stream with no means. it’s akin to a professional athlete having great games individually but never winning a championship. something’s missing. perhaps it’s the ocd in me. he told me to assimilate to the formula until the music takes off. it’s not what i wanted to hear, but i told him i’ll still release singles then drop the project and let the best performing songs become the next singles at the top of the year. i told him i’ve been burnt out between the writing, work, and the music. he told me to focus on the thing i want to do the most, but it’s hard for me to take a backseat to other things i love as well. it’s like i’m always working, but nothing ever gets done and i’m stuck in this feedback loop that’s draining me. they tell you consistency pays off, but what they fail to mention is that you have to fight through the fatigue first. it’s an uphill battle, but one i know i’ll be better because of.

and hopefully i can say the same about the world, too.

-ratha, 3:23pm, 8.3.25