one thing i’ll never understand about life is how it’s easy to fall into a rut, difficult to get out one. why can’t the nature of a universe filled with yin and yang be the opposite? no matter how little sleep i get, i can always stay up. no matter how good i eat, i can always go for wings, or for burgers, or for whatever it is that isn’t beneficial to me. i don’t get it, but all it reinforces is i have the power to make a change in my life regardless of how good or how bad things make me feel. with that being said, i’m deciding to make a few changes. i want to be able to cook and eat healthy. i want to wake up earlier and have a regular sleep schedule. i want to stop falling victim to instant gratification and have at it with long-term contentment.
i wanna be the best version of ratha i can be, but the best version of ratha doesn’t stay up until 4am sleeping on his own potential.
-ratha, 3:22pm, 8.12.20