5am anxiety, 8.24.20

i woke up this morning with crazy stomach pain. i don’t know if it was cramps or what. all i remember was waking up and looking at my phone. it was 5:57am. i felt so anxious (no ginuwine). i heard a plane flying over, which made things worse. low-flying planes that wake me out my sleep trigger panic in my body. then i thought of how crazy it would be if the world ended. like if something happened to the earth and it stopped rotating. i know, crazy, crazy thoughts. a few minutes later, i heard someone downstairs. thinking i was still half asleep hearing things, i look at the camera and it was money pulling up to the cribo. i couldn’t sleep until 7am, well after the sunrise. i just woke up and am feeling better, but man this year, especially this summer, has been ridiculous.

-ratha, 9:13am, 8.24.20

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